Life's a dance I'm learning as I Go

Well I am currently experiencing trouble sleeping. Add that to the list of all the other anxiety/stress related shit that's happening to me. Two weeks ago, I passed out at the very desk I type at. I came to face first on the ground with broken glasses that had apparently busted on the way down because I looked like hell. I had a bruised eye, forehead and a huge cut down my nose, not to mention my lip was busted so how I did not feel all this I will never know. I am setting up an appointment with an anxiety doctor so that I can get my breathing and temperament in check or else I am headed back down the horrible path I came from and that is not what I need right now. So as I was sitting here thinking about how shitty things are right now what with being only 25 and about to be on anti depressants, I read a friends blog about her daughter. Her daughter was born with a heart disease, is only ten months old and is going to have to experience an intense surgery. Not only that, her parents have to have countless fundraisers just to try to pay off all these bills. Which really made me realize that every day is a blessing and no matter how much I hate my predicaments right now, someone out there is suffering and has it ten times worse and they are not bitching even a little. I am hoping that the kind people of colleywood will donate some money to where I can get her something to contribute to her walk a thon they are holding for her because I need to start paying it forward. I am broke right now from my own bills but they pale in comparison to this family who I must say are handling this amazingly. On a separate note, Mark will most likely be starting online school soon, just gotta find a college that he can do his work online. Then after a few years, I can be outta here because frankly peeps I need an adventure. Two years from now, we wanna have a kid. We wanna travel and live somewhere in another state. I think we are gonna rock it too! I just pray every day for strength because Lord knows I need it. I cannot pass out or wake up with anxiety attacks and breathing problems anymore. So to that end, I'm gonna finish chuggin my dr pepper and veg out until i fall asleep. Good night:)