Seriously?!!

I think my niche should be angry chick writer. I know you guys probably think all I do is rant in these things but honestly, it's this demented and fucked up world we live in that makes me such a bitch. I have been unpleasant all day. Thank you eve for biting the damn apple and making us women completely insane 2 weeks a month. Guests of colleywood made me feel worthless today as the rich normally do. I had loooots of time at work being bored to think about some stuff and here is my new life plan as of today and thank God it's  documented because who knows if I will forget! Mark wants to go to school this summer or fall and become a Game Warden or Park Ranger eventually. This would mean we will probably be moving either somewhere off in texas or another state. At first I thought what?!! I dont wanna move! After processing it, I would love that and I decided that I would go for it and throw all caution to the wind and go back to school myself and get my degree in not only journalism but wait for it..wildlife journalism! it may take me awhile but dammit I'm going to do it! I have this overwhelming love for animals (except housecats of course) and I would love nothing more than to get to observe them and then write about it (National Geographic, I'm coming for you!) I would be able to do my job anywhere we went and do it better because i would be living with the animals themselves. Plus we would be making good money. Now I know I complain about rich people of Colleywood. But let's think about this.  My idea of being rich is not living paycheck to paycheck and being able to purchase anything at anytime during the week instead of waiting until payday and even then having to take something off the grocery list because I bought something like a notebook say. If I made good money, I could complete school, have nicer things and simply shop the same places and do the same things just not worry about it.  If you're reading this and get offended, I dont care because you know who you are and honestly how you piss away and throw your money around upsets us people that work our asses off and still want for everything and anything. Tonight on facebook I saw a post and it was as usual a photo of her c hild and her super expensive toy. I'm not saying any more details because I'm not that big of a bitch (yet) but honestly when children are dripped in diamonds and have everything and I can't even afford to get my hair done, my soul hurts. They are kids for God's sake doing better in life than me. It's my fault really for getting married and traveling the world but ya know what? Would not change that or take it back for the world because marrying Mark is worth more than all your fancy shit and all the riches in the world yet I am determined financial problems will not be what breaks us because that is such a bullshit way out of a marriage anyway. So off we go on our journey to true bliss together with our animals and if you are wondering where do kids fit in, she was so confused well here it is...kids will have to wait until school is finished and careers are on track because frankly I am the person that would rather have the awesome freedom to travel and write than change a poopy diaper and be kept up all night by a little crying baby. Maybe one day but for now, it's about me which it's never really been about because I have never wanted to move so that everyone else wouldn't be upset but I wanted to and I hope that I can make an actual difference when I make money as opposed to say buy a motorcycle when i dont even know how to ride one just because I can....yuck.